My obvious lack of a best friend
Damn, now that I think of it, I don’t really think of it, i don’t think I ever really had a best friend. Well, there was this dude I got really close to in my JS2, but he left after the first term of that year, and we lost contact. There have been close friends here and there, but none at that ‘best friend’ level. It’s more like I’m close to someone, but that person is close to someone else, and is probably best friends with said person, and I’m like that guy that’s you know, just there I guess.
Fast — forward to my first year in the university, and there was this awesome girl I met. After a while, she became my best friend, though it was all in my head, in a way. I would tell people we were best friends, but it wasn’t something we both discussed. We were pretty close then, and still close now, but it was more like I imposed the ‘best — friend’ status on my own. She eventually had to go away for a while, and though we maintained close correspondence, the ‘best — friend status’ slipped away technically, even though I still referred to her as my best friend.
Fast — forward again to my final year. Hold on one second, Dang, I just realized that I didn’t really have anyone close to the best — friend status in my 2nd and 3rd year, except this one girl I really liked, and spent a lot of time with. Anyways, around the time I finished with academic work, I started getting pretty close to this girl, and after a while, boom, new best friend, in my head again, of course. We are pretty close though, and she’s privy to stuff I don’t regularly tell other people, but that best friend feeling, well, it’s not just there. Have this nagging sensation that she already has a best friend, who also considers her a best friend, and its 99.99999..9% possible.
Everything just eventually boils down to the fact that I don’t have a best friend. I have really close friends, just no singular person that I’d call a best friend. Sometimes, I get that feeling that it might be extremely hard to get a best friend now, since I assume that people in my age bracket, around me, already have best friends, leaving me, just there, but with close friends though. Wonder if I’d get a new ‘in my head’ best friend soon, or eventually get an actual best friend.